Honestly, Openly Me

Every time you smile at me, that moment doesn't last long enough. I had never noticed you much before, but now that I have, I want more. I want your smile, I want your touch. I want your hands all over my body. I want to feel you deep inside of me, breathing heavily. Where did this feeling come from? I try to fight it but it only gets stronger My desire has been awakened from its long slumber, with just a smile and now it won't rest until it's satisfied. But it can never be satisfied. I want you so desperately but I can't have you. You aren't mine. You belong to somebody else. Why do I always want what I can't have? This is becoming a common theme. But I don't care. You smile at me and say my name like you mean it, like you can taste it and I wonder what my name would sound like coming from your mouth during long, exhausting moments of passion. What would my name sound like as I'm touching you, kissing you, sucking you... What does

He did absolutely nothing yet left me broken just the same I was caught in his web of "You're hot, I want you" smiles and kind hello's unaware that I was just number twelve thousand In his manipulative game. His greeting makes you feel special, it's a feeling I hadn't had in so long I would have done anything he wanted no matter how wrong. "I can't be this easy," I repeat to myself but I was that easy because I was so desperate for something else. Maybe he could have been anyone, maybe it was just him I don't know but I really hope I don't fall for basic flirty shit like that ever again. "I'm better than this," another line I repeat I'll never forgive myself & that's the shit I must eat. Karma's a bitch, I know for certain that's true And now I must pay For foolishly falling for you

I get turned off very easily I don't like childish games Little immature things people do to get your attention but then take it back a while later I don't like compulsive flirts, I like to feel special And I don't like hot and cold behavior - it turns me hot and cold I like realness, no matter what the situation or outcome Be real, be honest, be transparent and be open but also kind I'm an open book, if you ask the right questions if you show genuine interest and aren't being fake So I enjoy people who are very open and open minded as well, it makes it easier for me to be I don't like games or secrecy or having to wonder about everything I don't play games... unless I'm being played with, then I will play that game right back until I decide you aren't even worth another fucking second and cut you off I like people are secure and respectful People who listen to me - what my mouth is saying and what my body is saying People who show m

I never knew I could fall so fast and hard for someone I don't know. I don't even know how it happened. Or why. I wasn't looking for you. I didn't want you. I was indifferent. Then one day I noticed you noticing me and something about the way you looked at me felt different from every time before. I thought I was reading too much into it, but I couldn't get your face, and that look, out of my head. Suddenly, you were in my dreams and in my fantasies. At the most inappropriate moments, you invaded my mind. You seemed happy to see me and it was so strange because you never were before. And that was fine. I didn't think about you. But now, my God, I really don't want to think about you anymore. It's too hard. It's changed. You're hot and cold. Now that I've noticed you back, it's awkward. You seem turned off. And I'm such and idiot because I don't do this. I don't fall for someone that quickly just because of a